rhyming catastrophe

i deleted this entry. some of you may have already read it, but i decided i sounded too much like an angsty high schooler.

i had a good time hanging out last night for halloween. hillary was daria, i was jane, seth was trent, and katia and kc were beavis and butthead. nobody knew right off who hillary and i were, but most people were amused once we enlightened them.

i lost ten pounds! it's cool that i'm actually doing it. i put on some pants today that now fit a little looser in the waist. now that i'm on a roll, it's really not that hard. i definitely need to go to the gym more, but it's been difficult with all the traveling i've been doing and will still be doing.

guys are still dense, and i am still picky. i still have a best friend who, despite my feeling of being equal to her, gains more attention from dudes than me. i try to look on the bright side by telling myself that when i get involved with someone, i know it won't be just because of my looks, whereas she has a lot more weeding out (of douche bags) to do. i know saying this may seem like i don't think highly of my looks, but i do. it's just that i also realize that my looks are very distinctive, and aren't considered conventionally attractive. so that's how i'm trying to stay optimistic. sometimes i still just want to punch people in the face when all they see is her, and i'm like what the fuck dude? i am awesome too. so fuck you for not seeing it.

i want to do a cross country road trip. who wants to go?? i'm thinkin' sometime after i graduate in december...

i think i might have to turn my heat on soon. another winter season is fast upon us. i have been thoroughly enjoying wearing my pink jumpin' ducks adult footie pajamas the last few chilly nights though. see? i totally have mad sex appeal.

ideas are swirling around beneath the surface of everyday life, and i am excited. art, music, all things creative are what i look forward to these days. and going to miami on thursday. i am sure i will blend in fluidly with all the tan, beachy people there.