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what's up. long time no communicate.

it's april. it's getting warmer, i had mostly abandoned the internet for the last few months, save checking email. and occasionally myspace and craigslist. but whatever, don't judge me!

so on monday i'm going to get supplies to start my vegetable, herb and flower garden. I am excited! brandy and collier are going to share the land with me. possibly katia too, but she's overwhelmed with school right now.

i've been working overtime at mango, and sundays at alchemy in carytown. basically what i mean by telling you this is that i work pretty much every day and i'm kind of tired. but i've also been hanging out with my buddies and that's fun. cook out season is fast upon us and i am stoked about that.

mom is coming to visit during the second weekend in may, and i took off all four days she'll be here. it's going to be awesome because we're gonna go berry picking and do other fun stuff like go to maymont, the botanical gardens, sally belle and other delicious dining locations. i hate that i don't go to maymont and places like that on my own, on a regular basis. by the end of this year i definitely need to decrease my hours. i've been making more money, but i don't think it's all that worth it sometimes. i want the time to pursue art. and to have enough energy to clean my house. i've been so willing to just go go go, and that's great, i know that my work appreciates it, but lately i think i went a little too far and didn't listen to myself enough.

i have made some new friends over the last few months and it makes me really happy. magen is probably one of my favorite people ever, and we like to spend our free time doing similar things. i've never had a friend like that before, and it's awesome.

i can't believe we're 1/3 of the way through the year. yes, i think about stuff like that. time passes so fast for me these days. i'm not ok with it. i want to enjoy life more, and stop wanting to buy things. i want to stop being driven by money. i don't even get paid that much, but i probably get paid more than many of my friends. i've been resisting cynicism lately... now that i'm done with school for the time being, all these thoughts about 'adult' achievements have weight down on me, mostly the idea of buying a house and how impossible it seems.

and really, why should i be worrying about this? i'm only 23.

on the flip side, i have been having more fun. going out more and stuff.

i bought some art the other day. it is sweet. i'm sure there are richmonders who are 'over' nick kuszyk, but i don't care. go to rRobots to check it out.

today i feel like staying up late, drinking coffee or beer, baking brownies, reading books, playing games and watching movies with a good friend. but fuck my job that i have to be at at 8:45 tomorrow morning! nobody to blame but me, i know...

maybe i'll just do some cooking right now. i'm supposed to go to hillary's house and help her paint, but i haven't heard from her. tonight i really don't feel like working. i had today off and it didn't even feel like it.

i'm a whiny bitch. let's get drinks.

oh and i cut my hair:



a friend told me i needed to post photos of my hair, so i did. i was really tired and i know it's one of 'those' shots, but get off me. jk love ya!