raccoons!

i am becoming nocturnal.

i am trying to stay grounded and level-headed within a baby of a whirlwind. it's silly. not to undermine the people involved, but i mean. isn't it all just kind of silly? my sentiments are, i'll be the first to admit it.

there's a difference between someone deliberately jerking you around, and someone who is genuine. but still... why would i...

i repeat to myself over and over, be a friend, be a friend. be simple. be gentle, be caring. don't shout, if you can help it. don't wax dramatic (well hey, i am unable to follow that one, but i am definitely not the worst) and don't deny yourself. and thus, you are a walking contradiction. and i knew things were simple before, and they still are, but the most exhausting and overcomplicated paths have been tread in order to avoid this knowledge.

simple. i try. convincing...

i really am becoming 'that girl'. i.e. that 'what-the-fuck-are-you-talking-about' girl. i'm so proud.