11.08.2008

i can say now...


i don't know how to be optimistic and hopeful after eight years of being ashamed. the day after election day was really difficult for me because i didn't know how to feel. part of me was super stoked, but part of me felt like i was on the verge of crying and i didn't know why. i guess it was all just a shock... because of the election four years ago, i had prepared myself for anything this time. i didn't want to assume, i didn't want to be too hopeful, because i did that last time and it was difficult to get through.

i've gotten used to being bitter, cynical and ashamed to be an american. the thought of eventually not feeling this way partly changes my identity. big change can be scary to anyone due to the possibility of failure and criticism.

now i'm starting to just get more stoked and less freaked out. now let's just hope he doesn't get assassinated.

1 comment:

Will said...

Just cuz your dude won doesn't mean you need to give up being cynical and overly critical of your government. But yeah, if he does good feel free to get super psyched about it.